The Lonely Girl

As I tranferred from one college to another and left my friends back at the other college, I didn't feel the need to really make much friends at this new college, I really thought they were all too young and naive for me to sit and talk to them.

Yes I was selfish. I know.

I now have friends tho, but I miss one the most, one who was really but really intellectual and very open and was able to talk about anything; well one day in school she saw me and said she had broken up with her boyfriend, she was trying to hold herself strong and also stated she was depressed and that she had dropped out for a while but I never saw her again after that.

I hope that where ever she is, she finds herself in a great state, full of joy and always covered in Gods blessings. God Bless her.


Well, I was hungry, thirsty, and decided to have some coffee and sit under a tree. There was also a girl there, I asked her if she doesn't mind because this true is a very good friend of mine and I had come to visit the tree. Not that I talk to the tree or anything but I like the tree and the shade it gives me. Anyway, as I sit there, I see she is looking very concentrated in listening to the music through her headsets but I tried talking to her... It felt like an urge to talk to her, I don't know why but I did. To start, I mumbled some words to myself to see if she notices whether I am trying to say something or not and she did, so I asked her if she is new in school and she said yes and kept on talking as if I had opened a tap water and wasn't able to close again.

She states that not only she is new but that she doesn't feel comfortable in college, she doesn't like it. I said well, I don't like the school either because many people don't just come to study they come for other things and it's more of a social encounter than anything else but in reality, I noticed that it wasn't the school that she didn't like, it was the degree she had chosen to study which was marketing because her father to some extent didn't give her more options but her personal choice was architecture.


During the conversation, well, honestly it was more of her conversation than mine because it felt like the one that wanted to talk was her and felt like she somehow had no one to talk to.

I discovered that she has a slight inclination like me to music but also art, more like creativity section. Also, as she stated, she is a depressive person who's been through psychiatrics and many treatments but never finishes them and has even come across suicidal thoughts.

Suddenly almost immediately, I came into silence and asked God why all of this time nobody has sat there but me alone when I usually come to sit and this time, today, he sends me someone and someone with LOTS to say... "If this is your will, I said, please put in me words of knowledge, wisdom and truth to say because I don't want her to go back home and commit some suicidal or rebellious actions... at that point she stated she didn't even want to go to class and she had a class to expose that day but was planning to not expose just for no reason but for fear.

Quite frankly, I didn't know what to say.

The first thing, was, do you know who can actually help you, by excellence? she paused, she looked at my finger pointing above and said, GOD, and I said, our faithful friend in Jesus, no one but him. The second thing that came trough my mind was, when you die, whose the one who will stop breathing, you or me? I paused, and said remember, life will go on without you and also would be committing a sin.

I also asked her, when you look at me what do you see and what comes through your head? she answered a nice, sympathetic person and I followed her saying by saying "but BEFORE, I was a rebellious person, I drank, I partied like an animal but many times I felt alone;




I was a drug addict, I lived a rock n' roll life, broke many commandments in the bible, used the bibles pages for my friends to smoke weed, and even came to inject cocaine through my veins and was weighing almost 70lbs, do you see any traces, now? she said no.

God, rose me up, into the real life.

I also advised her to go to her class and at least say something and forget about the fears, fears usually never get you anywhere anyway. In life there are many battles to fight and this is one of your battles. Stay firm and never think that you're alone. In Jesus, we are not alone and always remember that the battles are mostly caused by the one who calls himself the prince of the air, that is if you believe in the Good and the Evil.


Now that I write this, I don't even know her name and I don't think we got to exchange names or introduce ourselves and I've never seen her again.


My Blessing to her and may the Lord give her strength, where ever she is today!

21 Favourite Inspirational Sayings

"Coincidence is when God chooses to remain anonymous.” - Submitted by Ai Leng Ho


21 Favourite Inspirational Sayings

Christianity mode or vulgarity?

I don't understand how people tend to give themselves pleasures in saying that christians are crazy people or fanatics over religion and there I go again and state "don't place your tongue in places you don't know.

    Personally, I think that when people say things like that, they are making fun of the things or experiences which others have lived and the love they feel for God.

To mention something,  this Sunday a friend called me up and the first thing she did was curse words out her mouth, I instantly cut her off by advising her to change her french accent to the professional one that she is suppose to have. Right then, she asked if I had my christianity mode on and what was that all about, and I just replied that I always have my christianity mode on and that I was tired of having to listen to those words coming out her mouth and all she said was "I think you are going crazy, that is what I think..."

My reply was "I know where I've been, I know where I stand and I certainly know where I am going and God Bless you."

So please, it is not a necessity to include cursing words in your mouth in a sentence or a dialogue, some ears happen to be very fragile to those words, we really don't need to take your words in, that is one of the main reasons why my mind really wonders away within my own thoughts to not even hear people take the way they do and it's not that I don't want to listen or pay attention the idea they have to say and it might be a key idea in their lives but face it, you just drew me off with your offensive words.

It's the same thing for a man or a woman when beginning to date, imagine going out to a fancy restaurant to have dinner and suddenly that person you're with starts cursing or just saying offensive words and the people around is hearing and looking at both of you. Can you imagine your own face right then and there?

Then you ask yourself, why people don't wont to go out with you again, you honestly think I want a person next to me that is constantly cursing? it's not only offensive to me but to the people around us.

She hung up and well she just called me crazy!

   May God hold her strong.

Our Sins, Feeling Shameful?

Yesterday, my second day in a seminar, I came in when a man spoke about his experiences in life and how he came to know God.

He mentioned something he did that made me realize that I did it as well and probably to the ears of some is very bad, in fact it almost seems like a crime. And thinking about it, made me realize that I have done many things, commited, to say many crimes or many sins which I am not proud nor did I like admitting my sins today but because of those sins I met God and most importantly I am proud to say I am someone else today and that person who actually commited those sins or thoughts is now dead.

It's a reality, that in most cases when you realize that you have done certain things, you can't help feeling shameful about those things because you do realize they weren't good at all. Just when he mentioned that he had a bible in his house for one reason; a woman, a friend had given it to him because the pages were useful for rolling marijuana but that same bible was God's instrument to speak to him, it had me thinking, wait, I am not the only one who has done that and it is not a shame of admitting it. Yet I felt so ashamed of my sins, of the things I was capable of doing but then it gave me strength because those things were the reasons which God had come to my rescue and made me realize that what I did was wrong.

It is not to say that you should sin in order to meet God, it is to say, that even to people who don't believe, make fun or say he does not exist is to those that he actually shuts our mouths up and makes us swallow our own "spits", our own words.

I mentioned on one of my posts that I was a person who since a child, in my early teenage years I believed in God, I would praise, pray to Mary for interceding and go to church on my own, but my mind became weak at some point in life which I came to actually believe that I didn't believe in God, I became atheist for some reason. No, not for some reason, but because my friends at the current time were atheist and somehow managed to brain wash me at that time; to fit in.

To fit in, you commit many crimes, many sins, for what others may think.

Yet, I am able to understand that that person who once came against almost 7 commandments of God, yes, me who also, allowed my friends to rip the pages off my bible and use them as rolling papers for smoking Marijuana, to steal even from gasoline even from the gas stations and my own family, precious things and my precious things as well, to dishonour my family, my parents, to misuse Gods name and take him in vain, to commit adultery and many other things that came to a point in which I lost my own family, threatened my sister to death and threw her out of the house.... and so one, that person who once did that, can now understand that that was the old her and not the new her, it's been four years since I met God for the first time and it was hard for me to say many things, to admit to many things but hey, we are not perfect, all of us have sins which he have committed and there is hope for everyone.

No matter what you have done, where you have been, God has always, does and still love you and will always love you no matter what, no matter who dirty and unworthy you might think you are; you are worthy and deserve his love as well. His love cleanses us, renews us so we can live a better life and have better values to and for ourselves no matter what others think.

You are worth so much to God and his love goes beyond everything.

God Bless You.